Black Soil in the Pearl

How I have dared to desire
the heart of someone I could never attain
Sweet summer love
in a meadow untouched, a meadow tranquil
away from prying eyes and heartless music
and under the embrace of a sky unwavering
I want that,
All of it
For only if you saw me, the way I see you
We could love today
and the days that followed
and you could kiss me if you wanted
and touch me unrestrained
show me how it feels
to love, and to be loved back
even water must be sweet, and rain full of colours
like the blessed hand of God
Can I speak to you, once?
not in prayers or poetry
but in the whisperings of the wind
for I just wanted you to know
we could just kiss, for now, and forever
like taking a breath and holding it,
knowing it to be the one true paradise
How I feel awakened when I see you
like we’re the only ones promised this land
how lonely this sensation is,
and how it hurts to look at you
your smile and your words
none for mine to claim, for mine to answer
What have you made of me?
If you won’t love me, tell me how to suffer
If there is more to life than a heart unadorned
How will I bring peace about
and undo this hurt?
that has made love so unmusical a word
Like beauty, with that of sorrow
love must also wane along the years
I might forget your name
in the life that is to follow
But the name God knows me by, calls you still
So, give me a name, that knows not yours
a heart anew to call someone
who will keep their heart a little closer to mine,
knowing it to be black soil in the pearl

Kevin Gurung

The British College

BBA (Level 6)